i was like
doing nothing
during 1st per class as usual.
i couldnt get the assignments started
because i kept thinking what i should do.
i mean,
i dont like it being at school.
i dont have any close friends
in the grade that im in.
im sick of being alone.
its not fun at all.
i do not smile in the class.

so, i was thinking 'bout
what would be happen what if i keep doing it.
wow its ridiculous!
i cant just be there and say nothing.
its like im a stone or something!
nobody would care.
and it would be too harsh for me to be there.

so, i was thinking 'bout what i have to do.
when im in trouble,
i write down whats happening now on a note
and encourage myself with my words on the paper.
i did this during the others studying math really hard today.

it was ALMOST like this

i realized that i was really shy
when i was over there.
and i didnt walk up to the people and talk to them.
i kept waiting and waiting and waiting.
since i stopeed waiting,
i got so many friends after all.
so i have to do same thing over in japan too.
like one of my ex-boyfriends.
he was so cool. he acts like an adult.
he can make friends with anybody.
he does what he needs to do.
which is shaking hands(and some more 4 ME♥)
he says what he needs to say.
which is "hey whats up. whats your name."
i know what i need to do now.
so i can do it.
my friends over there said to me
"keep smiling" or "your smile brightens the room"
so i've got to do this.
and the ex-boyfriend said to me
"you stay cute and kinky"
so i've got to do this♥
and i thought
"i should be proud of myself"
because i got over lots of walls already.
and
i got the coolest guy for my boyfriend once in my life!!

i was encouraged by the friends.
i dont talk to them anymore but theyre still in my mind.
thank you guys!
i had a good day today.

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