I couldn't believe my eyes
tears automatically come up in my eyes,
my heart was beating fast,
my hands were trembling,
and thought, whether I should open this mail or not.

a person emailed me for apologiesing what he's done to me
NOW.

I was totally desperate last year because of that person.
like I've never had in my life.

why now?

why now?
because I'm far away from there,
and he thinks it should be safe?

one year.
almost a year passed,
and he apologized by email.

It hurt me so much.
what kind of person could have done such thing?
It was not fair at all.
It still bothers me sometime.

"inconvinience"!! ha!
more than that.
you'd better know the expression should be more than that.

shit, I shouldn't have checked email in this morning...

fuck.

I was hurt so badly,
because it was such a beautiful time,
and amazingly,still I can remember so clearly
about the short time we spent.
and then put me into to depression.
Yes. I was hurt like I've never had in my life.

I thought it's just someone else's story until then, not me.

all my feelings, senses come up all togather.
I'm totally confused.

reconcile?
what is he seeking for me?
just apologising, or more than that?

I can't find any guy like him
either the best and the worst.

ai ｜MAIL